w/o u my life suck

2010-09-27T14:15:00.000-07:00

Hmmm here to post for you.

It seem like your blog is dead never update norh.

I dunno wad is going on,

maybe you are really that busy till no time to sms barhx= haha it okay nahr,

Anw takecare off yourself don't think too much.

Anything just sms me.

And last and for all is that exam coming wish you all the best for your end off year exam

hope you can pass it with flying colour.

Takecare

By: Akashii

2010-09-18T13:53:00.000-07:00

JUST WANNA END ALL THIS DRAMA IN MY LIFE , TOO MUCH !

2010-05-27T20:24:00.000-07:00

Xiao Demon~"21"
Once n again i help uue to decorate uur blog hope uue like it ha
don't sad sad k don't cry
anything can jus tell mwii
i willing to lend uue my ear

2010-05-02T17:20:00.000-07:00

FEVER , COUGH , HEADACHE , SORE THROAT , fcking irritating !

off to see doctor , byes !

2010-04-30T11:34:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 1 YEAR 6 MONTH DARLING !

Thx for calling me this afternoon although its is just a 3 min talk but I guess everything is just worth it , miss your voice miss your everything , shall meet up real soon if not really DBT ! Trust me have faith in me <3 I won't leave you just like that , our relationship won't so fragile right ? won't ever ever leave or even ever say break ! Remember our forever agreement in 6 years time from my age $100 000 complete everything :D

Didn't went school again because I am late and I am way too tired and I guess my health is also falling becoming more and more worst , headache , cough , sore throat , vomit blood all in one sudden , hey will I die ? I wonder ? what happen next ? hey I am scare now ! But never mind continue with my story,

been chatting with sufi my lovely brother for the past few days or should I say weeks chatted with him with lots and lots of topic but it was about the same , complaining yeah I am just complaining this and that to him life is way too sucky even if I said this way I guess the most pity one is him because he have endure with all my complaining and nagging when he is not even emo but when he is emo worst I am just adding stress to him wanted him to help me share all my worries and stuff plus he still need to care for me worry about me when I sudden mood change never reply his smses , I feel like I am just dragging him down to my own emo world lo , so unfair I know so I am here to say lots of lots of SORRY to him my lovely brother I hope I could just shut my mouth up without complaining how bad my bloody life is !so mess up with all the problems and troubles and lots of unwanted stuff . Effing tired already ! But what to do ? But lovely brother thank for lending me ur ear and always there for me when I needed someone to alibaba with ~ Been quarreling with my sister from up to down , left to right , screaming and shouting is not longer in use , it will just hurt my throat so I just let her be but her bloody attitude is the only reason I get so bloody angry every single toot day ! , I am just scare one day I just cannot tahan anymore and just whack her , yeah I mean whack her ! But still have to say sorry to her too , I know my attitude stink too can't blame me we both are just having mood swing here and there so we anyhow alibaba with each other but I guess our sistership still won't change that much bahx standing tall and strong ! everytime quarrel with each other in the end also smile smile laugh laugh in the end sometime I really wonder why do we always quarrel so much? so stupid can ! should spend more time with each other without quarreling already la ! And again been quarreling with my parent too because of mood swing and some misunderstanding between us I really hope I could stop all this quarrel , sorry for blaming you guys for not buying me iphone and stuff cuz I very boylish don't how to really treasure things once anything on my hand a few moment later the stuff become very cui just like the hairband I play for 3 min broke into half , my hand super itchy I left with no choice but to break anything that are so fragile ! But I really wish to own one Iphone on my own but mummy say no touch screen phone for me :( cuz I easily drop my phone ~

currently chatting with ALAN TOH ZI XIONG my bestie , chatting craps because way too boring and he ask me go play one facebook game call Happy Aquarium , he got so addict to this game already lahx ! he say he super love fishy gng to intro him one new fishy facebook game more fun than this de can catch beautiful fishy and put them in your fish tank... Oh ya you know what I got his facebook acc password and username can hack his acc already but I am not so bad til go hack bestie acc lahx ! yaya bestie when want audi with me har ? I level 15 liao :D soon nj you ! beware ! But the most importantly bestie thank for always staying by my side listening to all my unhappiness and stuff truly touch and thank for the special and precious advices to me and always helping me to update my dead blog when I neglected it to keep it alive with your post and picture ~

currently chatting with N1GHT too , HAPPY WATCHING SOCCER ! But I just don't understand why boys love to watch soccer that much ? 20 peoples or izzit more or izzit less chasing one ball to goal very interesting mehx =X maybe its is just boys's interest but don't watch til too late o ><

sorry for the lack of photo and effing long post with all the craps in it , pardon my english because I don't even know what am I talking about , its 2.49 am in the morning , good morning everyone !
and lastly I haven been to clementi for quite sometime which mean I haven been meeting bibi lurbe for quite sometime already but I know you miss me I miss you too !
btw,

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2010-04-29T07:15:00.000-07:00

Do I really love you or am I just needing you ? my friend asked me this question just now without further thinking I replied YES I really do love you ! But do you still love me ?

2010-04-24T19:21:00.000-07:00

Bestie here to upload a post for uue ha takecaiire n don think too much ba....
study is more important lol...
don waste uur time on relationship le k.
if he don love uue jus let it end ba.
Don keep on bluffing uurself must face the fact, i don think he still love you. Cause a feeling fade was hard to find back again ok. :D

"Akashi"アカシ.Alan.卓梓雄

2010-04-23T09:08:00.000-07:00

I WANNA RESET , RESTART EVERY SINGLE THINGS IN MY LIFE ~

2010-04-19T05:16:00.000-07:00

MOTIVATE ME TO EXERCISE MORE ~

AS I WANNA SLIM DOWN

WAY TO LAZY ~

3 days ago I feel like dying .

2 days ago almost going crazy STRESS !

1 days ago I am feeling happy plus sad plus stress plus get neglected and super left out plus wanna give up plus super angry plus lonely~

I am sorry I miss you dear ~

2010-04-17T09:24:00.000-07:00

Times to update my dead blog again ~ Just a super short post

In case you are wondering where these photos are taken from , they are taken in Pioneer Mall's toliet , august and me went there to buy ingredients for baking cupcakes. ignore my ugly face ~

MISSING BABY RIGHT NOW , He is busy already so gotta wait for him to be free once again :(

kind of moodless right now argh I don't even know what I am talking about now never mind never mind pls ignore me I dunno why I so blur today ~ anyway I hope My bestie alan will cheer up soon ~

shall end here ,

Good night earthlings

THIS POST SUCK !

2010-04-08T07:40:00.000-07:00

JUST ANOTHER LIE AGAIN , DISAPPOINTED WITH BESTIE

NOTHING IS FOREVER FINALLY UNDERSTAND WHAT IT REALLY MEAN BY THAT ~

SUFI (WAR) BROTHER~
Thank for being by my side when I needed someone to talk to the most, YOU are a very good listener , sorry that I always chat with you about the same things and all the negative throught came flying out of my mouth without thinking hope you won't find me irritating that fast=X SORRY IN ADVANCE IF YOU EVER FIND ME IRRITATING PLS LET ME KNOW BECAUSE I DON'T WANNA MAKE YOU HEARD MY ALIBABA STUFF AND BECOME IRRITATED BY ME OR BECOME EMO =X haha shall end here , JIE LOVE DI <3

2010-04-06T05:39:00.000-07:00

SHALL update my blog today , sorry for neglecting this blog recently didn't mean to let this blog dead just that I got no mood to blog recently pls understand me ...
IN MARCH ,

9th of march[daddy] && 20th of march [mummy]

last but not least

10th of march [ mine birthday ] ps no photo &&

but I had a wonderful birthday party with friend in school and thank so much for the presents and the surprises you gave me ~

IN LATE MARCH AND START OF APRIL,

Many things happen recently , sadness , disappointment cause me to breakdown , crying make my eye swollen the next day , I know many things won't be the same anymore thank to my stubborn attitude , after this few days of thinking , I change perhaps I just wanna be happy but its is so damn hard ! laughing all the way in school act as if I am really happy but once I am all alone somewhere I start to anyhow think again and of course all sorts of negative thoughts came haunting my mind again,come on acting that I am really okay, acting that I am really happy its really tough, can I still continue to be like this, how long can it really last ? I really wonder ~ stressing with school works , I CAN'T COPE WITH SEC 5 WORKS ! I am really scare that I am going to waste one year just like that studying nothing and fail my "o" regret not going Ite for further studies previously to get my degree and start working ~

ANYWAY , bestie thank for helping me update my super dead blog and scolding me asking me to wake up form this dreams , I understand that by quarreling with my parents make me a bad child , I will try to control my temper cum attitude so that I won't quarrel with my parents so that aften , don't worry much ~ Yea they can be quite naggy sometime and sometime too naggy on my moodless day make me lose my temper , I do not want to quarrel with them either but they sometime really get on my nerves... But I really understand that their naggy-ness is good for me so I will listen bahx , and I will cherish them de don't worry that much ... I know I should also control my temper and attitude , I will also try to change for the better de ~ and ya gratz that you and you stead finally okay le , Last long long kkay , I don't want to hear any breaking up or stuff from you k ? cherish her pls , she is a very nice girl and do take care alot too ! o ya I forgot , me and stead although haven break but we seem like stranger , I am trying to ignore everything so I can feel happier... Last but not least don't worry I won't do anything that will hurt me de I am not the last time jasmine anymore anyhow slash and what so ever liao hence now I have stronger mindset le so don't worry ! && yea I will study hard de lahx dun worry k ? && of course will keep my blog alive ~

Baby , I know we are drifting but I do not know what the is the main reason that cause us to drift so fast , I remember 1 year ago , the way you treated me is so different from others I knew and its was the first time a guy treated me this way ... 1 year ago you let me feel important to you 1 year later we are totally like stranger , sms not more than 5 a day and we have already not met for 1 month 2 weeks le maybe to you meet or never meet aren't important at all ... But to me its is very important I wish to spend every single moment with you just like last time but I know it cannot be done anymore , can you pls tell me the reason of changing , the change in you,really make me feel insecure ... I perhap too rely on you , I need you more than anyone does , it is hurtful just to see you change ... everytime my classmate ask me about you or say your name out I will rather turn emo but not to reveal my emoness I laugh but I was just acting , its is really damn hurtful to see you change this way ...

Shall end here ~

Good night earthlings

Take care !

2010-04-01T13:27:00.000-07:00

Hey alan hereby to post for uue ha.... Alan saw uur blog since like going dead zzz....
eh bestie can uue jus wake up... don drop in deeper n deeper not tatt i wanna scold uue or wad but uue go think ok not everyone don understand uue k. Uue go think tatt uur heart inside got hw many secret nv tell uur parent. Uue go think k, uur parent is care for uue de maybe they are naggy but is still good for uue understand. Let mwii tell uue something got alot of orphan in singapore they have no parent to care for them but uue got parent wid uue y don cherish them rather then being so rude to them can uue. Uue don everytime say can uue noe... Go think ok i noe tatt uur sis giving uue alot of trouble but uue must think uue last time hw uue treating uur parent nw she treating uue bck k it the same she learn from uue hmmm bestie anything uue can text mwii ok must taggy mwii too zzzz siian

Anw mwii n my stead ok ler
uue do takecaiire n stay happy
don because of a guy uue end uur story here
guy only not end of world ok
CHEER UP man!!!

Don do something tatt hurt uurself it not worth for a guy don love uue
in these world there is alot of guy k... uue jus need to wait don think too much nw
carry on the task tatt uue need to do i mean uur study k
takecaiire

Signoff
"Akashi"アカシ.Alan.卓梓雄:

2010-03-22T03:34:00.001-07:00

Hey hey hey!!! Akashii bck to uur blog to help uue to update uur blog again....
Hey gerl don go emo la uue still got akashi as uur bestie so don sad ok..
akashi will be everytime there for uue de so don worry...
sorry last few day nv sms n help uue to update uur blog sorry ok
don angry haha
takecaiire^^

signoff
"Akashi"アカシ.Alan.卓梓雄

2010-03-12T07:13:00.000-08:00

can't update my post with photos once again cuz i screw up everything again!
sorry peeps , I feeling so stress up ~ don't wish to talk about it sorry to let u guys disappointed again for not blogging a good posts ...

The sight of my sister make me feel like puking ~
The missing feeling inside me make me feel so fucking lonely ~
people change , they do change , u just can't blame them and u can't force them to change back, things weren't the same as it is anymore , I just couldn't find back the missing parts , the feeling , the cheerful me is all gone...
maybe I am just tired perhaps I am maybe I should just leave this cruel world , I can't think of any things that is meaningful to me in my life anymore , it all long gone , I really hate the me now ... 100% hate , I given up myself ~ There is no more reason left in this world that I should continue living and there is no reason why I should die , everything seem to be torturing me ...

2010-03-11T06:10:00.000-08:00

HEY I SHALL UPDATE MY STUPID BLOG TMR ~

STAY TUNE FOR PHOTOS AND UPDATES

AND

SHOCKING NEWS WAHAHAHA !

LOVE U GUYS !

NIGHT EARTHLINGS PLS IGNORE ME I AM KIND OF

CRAZY !

RUSH OFF TO DO MY GEO HOMEWORK ~

DON'T MISS ME >.<

2010-03-06T03:40:00.000-08:00

SOMETIME I JUST FEEL LIKE REVEALING THE DARK SECRET OF MINE THAT ARE MEANT NOT TO BE TOLD BECAUSE ITS JUST TOO TIRING TO KEEP THIS DARK SECRET WITH ME FOR 1YEARS 5 MONTH 6 DAYS ~

2010-03-02T01:55:00.000-08:00

BUSY WITH SCHOOLWORK :( ~

SO I DO NOT HAVE THE TIME TO UPDATE RECENTLY
I AM SO SO SO SORRY !
FORGIVE ME PLEASE :(
MANY THINGS HAPPEN RECENTLY TOO, MAKE ME FUCKING SAD !
SO I DO NOT HAVE THE MOOD TO UPDATE MY BLOG~
SHALL UPDATE MY BLOG WHEN I FREE SO STAY TUNE~

GOOD BYE READERS TAKE CARE !

2010-02-24T04:51:00.000-08:00

Hey hey i m"Akashi"アカシ.Alan.卓梓雄 ha
here to help uue to update uur blogger zzzz
she nw currently damm busy have no time to update her blogger
she busy wid all her homework ha
but i think she will be back to post this few day ba haha
Anw jas don stress too much la AssHole uue this few day donno
y like totally change more like a aunty liao lol haha
don angry if uue see this post ok.... >.<

Takecaiire XD
Signoff
"Akashi"アカシ.Alan.卓梓雄

2010-02-20T10:28:00.000-08:00

went Baby 's Jiu Mu house "Bian Nian" wow wow his family members are all so friendly
Tumb ups :D
And baby's real blood brother ask me one funny question just now , when is you and kor kor [EDWIN] going to get marry and have baby and I ask him dunno and why he say Cuz I want a niece or nephew...
This question really let me LAUGH MY ASS OUT HARD HARD ~
FUNNY SIA but He is mad CUTE can ~
shall end here tata my reader ~
NIGHT EARTHLINGS !

2010-02-19T04:01:00.001-08:00

slept for only 2 hours yesterday , freak tired !
but no point sleeping now cuz someone has just make me fucking no MOOD !
Hey I waited for ur smses for like going 28 hours already when are you replying ?
MAD WORRY !

I screwed up 84% of my teenagelife

2010-02-18T00:22:00.000-08:00

Didn't went school yesterday due to late plus headache :(
spend my whole day updating my blog songs, facebooking last but not least watching tv shows :D
SUPER BORING !
went back school today , awww freaking many homework lo one word STRESS !
can I avoid school ? I am feeling stress already !
after reaching school , spam call august but just couldn't get through it 4 in the afternoon liao but I still haven hear a single words from her yet what happen to her sia can anyone tell me? zzz nvm don't irritate her any further liao maybe she got something on or maybe she is BUSY !
doing my freaking homework right now one word BORED !
pardon me , ZZZ is becoming my fav word in my life sound cool lol what talking me
ignore me , I am going crazy already ...

I SCREWED UP 84% OF MY TEENAGE LIFE ~

[√ ] Gotten detention.
[√] Gotten your phone taken away in class.
[√] Gotten suspended.
[√ ] Gotten caught chewing gum.
[ ] Gotten caught cheating on a test.
Total: 4

[√ ] Arrived late to class more than 2 times.
[√ ] Didn't do homework over 5 times
[ ] Turned at least 3 projects in late
[√ ] Missed school cause you felt like it.
[√ ] Laughed so loud you got kicked out of class.
Total : 8

[√ ] Got your mom / dad etc. to get you out of school.
[√] Texted people during class.
[√] Passed notes.
[√ ] Threw stuff across the room.
[√ ] Laughed at the teacher.
Total : 13

[ ] Pulled down the Fire Alarm.
[√] Went on Myspace , Facebook , Xanga , etc. on the computer at school.
[√ ] Took Pictures during school hours.
[ √] Called someone during School hours.
[√ ] Listened to an iPod , CD , etc... During class.
Total : 17

[ ] Threw something at the teacher
[√ ] Went outside the classroom without permission.
[ ] Broke the dress code.
[√] Failed a class test.
[√] Ate food during class.
Total : 20

[√ ] Gotten a call from school.
[ ] Couldn't go on a field trip cause you behaved badly.
[√] Didn't take your stuff to school.
[ √] Gotten a detention and didn't go.
[√ ] Stuck up your middle finger at a teacher when they were not looking.
[√ ] Cursed during class loud enough so the teacher could hear.
Total :25

[ √] Faked your parents signature
[√ ] Slept in class.
[ ] Cursed at a teacher to their face.
[√] Copied homework
Total:28

MULTIPLY BY THREE : 28 x 3 =84%
Tag 10 of your friends.
Then Repost this and put the Title as "I screwed up __% of my teenage life".
From miao yee blog :D

[ Baby I am hell freaking disappointed with you already , everytime give me hope in end spoil it again sometime I really wanna ask you how much more hope you wanna give me and smash it hard again tired?
Too much le you know ? HURT ~ ]

2010-02-16T06:48:00.000-08:00

STAY AT HOME WHOLE DAY

AND SLEPT WHOLE DAY

NO GAMBLE

NO FUN !

awaiting for baby msg again

two word so sian !

2010-02-15T11:42:00.000-08:00

Back to blogging , got miss me mah ?
wake up early in the morning prepare and out I go to my aunt's house "Bai Nian"
couldn't stop eating =X [aiya I think you guys know the reasons why ]
YUMMY YUMMY !
Due to time constraint, couldn't wait dao "the one" so me and my family went off early to daddy's friend house ~
LOL NO BITCHINGS SESSIONS TODAY SOB SOB !
but gamble session but didn't play due to my mummy is the dealer
ALAN lost 70 dollar tonight how SAD ! Me lehx no win no lose gain NOTHINGS zzz
WE NEITHER OF US WAS THE WINNER OF THE DAY HOW SAD !
k lahx shall end here , NIGHTS EARTHLINGS !
shall update tmr :D

currently waiting for baby's sms :(

2010-02-14T10:40:00.000-08:00

HALO ALL ~
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR~!
Just for your information , I just reopen my pathetic blog ONE day back yeah can say its on VAL day ~
First of all can I complain that :
My Val day wasn't that good and in fact ITS IS SUPER NOT GD, lonely Val :( Baby you own me big time lahx ~
HEY Readers, mind sharing with me how you and your sweetheart spend this special day together ?
okay okay change topics !
HAHA ! Secondly I wanna thank ALAN the panda cum asshole for helping me edit my blog skin and stuff yeah yeah I don't own your big time =X because its your hobby !
Thirdly I wanna complain that:
My AUDITION skills drop like what the fuck ?
how pathetic ?
Fourth I wanna thank my cousins for the bitching session just now , haha I still remember the ccmi and all the other hot stuff yeah lets bitch somemore later ~ awww sound bad but I like it !
Love you guys lahx !
faster meet up later continue our bitching
MISSES !
Fifth I wanna complain that :
I AM SUPER DUPER TIRED !
Yeah super duper tired ! go rest , go sleep yeah I know but later after I finish posting ~
Last but not least
EDWIN LUA KIAN CHAO REPLY MY SMS ASAP [tired of repeating the same old thing]
&&
shall update my songs lists by tomoro 30 over songs perhaps but I know no one will really stay at my blog to listen just put for fun, don't say I crazy THANK YOU VERY MUCH ~

lets gamble tomoro gamble tomoro ~ shall win all Alan money ~ WIN WIN WIN LAHX ~

Hohoho did I just say I am tired ?

SO , good night all, shall update my post tomoro as promise!

so stay tune for more information~

NIGHT EARTHLINGS~!♥

2010-02-13T11:23:00.000-08:00

Haha hey tootpid uur blog is done ha...
anyt happen to uur blog still can look for mwii but not 24/7 ok
haha and this is wad i like to do can so call it my hobby ba ha
jus to tell uue tatt uue nv give mwii too much stress on uur blog la
ha. Really hope uue will like uur blog hmmm
here to bless uue n everybody Happy New Year n a Happy Valent time's Days
haha.....
cya tomorrow or monday ba haha
takecaiire!!!^^
Tatt all for uur post today ha
sign off
"Akashi"アカシ.Alan.卓梓雄

2009-12-16T11:34:00.000-08:00

Alright how should I start ? I sudden have the urge to blog after the last post on September 21 yea I know its was a pretty long so call some sorts of MIA-ING from blog...

Alright its 3.33 am now , Just a random short post

I have been mapling whole day til late at night around 5am recently :/

found out SOME maplers somehow too childish and too FUCK

their attitude seriously stinks, PUKE !

If you are wondering why I am saying this because I got my own reason

FIRST : THEY STEAL MY MAP

SECOND: THEY CALL PPL COME KS

THIRD: THEY DEFAME ME BY 10 FOR NOTHING

FOURTH: THEY ARE ACTING SO BIG IN MAPLE AND SCOLD ME LIKE NUT

FIFTH: THEY ARE ASKING ME TO SIAM AND SAYING ARE YOU SCARE OF BEING KS NOW (obviously I am not scare , too lame isn't it ? )

this shall explain why their attitude stink ewww !

I am tired & I am bored.

waiting for baby sms can be sucha torture la but I have to understand one thing cuz he is in camp right now , this camp is longer than I tot cuz I forget to remind baby to cut his hair before he return back to camp now he got his punishment that is to stay in this weekend , awww another week of can't see him how sad ... Baby promise me this week he got plans for both of us and surprises for me wah awaiting to find out what it is but to bad he have to stay in this weekend all because of our stm kill us ... But he promise to continue his plan on xmas eve can't wait for the day to come. Alright enough of Baby liao , wah I am getting my results this friday 18 of dec at 2.30pm :O I AM SCARED OF GETTING RESULTS. FUCK IT MAN ! ><

Alright did I mention I change my mouse to hello kitty one?

should I get this phone?

2009-09-21T08:02:00.000-07:00

This is the new LG phone, the LG GD900 Crystal:

It has a utterly transparent keypad lorhx , make me feel like getting it cuz it is like damn chio lorhx ... but most of my friend say Lg phone super lag , perhaps getting other phone bahx ...

Random speech
What is life all about ?
life go through up and down , nothing is fair nothing is perfect , is its the matter of how you look at things and how to solve it in the correct ways...
To me , I presonally find it that life is fill with stress and often enough I feel like commiting sucide and I know its wrong to think about this ...
sometime I wonder why human face so much unwanted problems ?
To me is maybe god is trying to test us ? wanting to see how good are we in trying to solve a problem and teaching us how to be more independent ...
why do some people work so hard yet can't get what they wanted , while others get what they wanted so easily without putting in any effort? why is the world so unfair ?
To me , I think is by luck bahx ? life is fill with unfairness and we have to admit it and continue to live on ? cuz its our life ?
random wrote [ just ignore it if you don't wanna read]
some question is taken from ri ri 's blog

anyway its been a long time since I last saw my grandma , awww I seriously miss her , must go visit her soon maybe this weekend???

Half quit audition [ don't ask me why]

p/s : ri ri cheer up okay ? everything will be alright de :D

IF ONLY I COULD REWRITE THE PAST

2009-09-18T04:34:00.000-07:00

Recently , many things happen , nothing make me feel better , I smile for the sake of smiling , I laugh for the sake of laughing , I say I am not feeling sad just cause I don't want let others who care to worry for me, I act happy just to avoid all question by friends and those who care... I feel lonely inside me seriously I feel damn lonely , everytime I saw my Friends talking about something happily but I don't understand what they are talking about ,I feel sad I feel that I am being left out... Sometime I was talking to them , calling them super many time , why can't they hear me ? Am I talking too soft or what ? Just needed Friend who share common topic with me , hear what I say , listen to me , share the same ideas with me , understand me well.

Few days ago , I was being chase out of house by my daddy , just cause I quarrel with my sister but me and my sister did not really quarrel that how we communicate with each others, sound weird right ? daddy suddenly get so angry and scolded us damn loudly but somehow he like push all the blame toward me ? that how I feel ? I got so angry walk out of his room and sat in a living room , thinking of many things , holding back my tears but I feel so hurt inside and I stood up while stood up that time I accidently kick on the chair and my dad just came out of the room and saw that , he took the keys and open up the gate and chase me out of house , I got so angry and I run out of the house with tears took nothing but my phone , sitting at the staircase trying to stop the tears but I just couldn't stop it , sms everyone in my phone but only baby and ben replied. while smsing and thinking of many things, I feel like jumping down and end my life . At that time , I feel like ending everything ... 45mins later , mummy came shouting at my name looking everywhere for me , searching high and low and finally she found me , we had a heart to heart talk, she say actually is your daddy ask me come find you de, at that moments my tears flow down my eyes like water , at that time I feel that my parent actually do care for me but in their own ways which I don't really understand , went home with her after that and went in the room say sorry to my daddy... Just wanna say SORRY to my parents I was being so stubborn on that day ...

Hmm few days ago , Baby told me his asiasoft account was being suspended due to failure to sign in asiasoft for 5 times , find that asiasoft is like cheating money ? just because of the password suspend ppl acc... Alright rmb Baby told me before , He spend a few hunderds or even close to a thousand dollar on audition and maple but just by 5 min everything was like gone , all his maple, auditionsea acc couldn't sign in anymore , yea our couple heart , our fam ranking and fam was like gone forever ? A couple of days before our fam have been chiong-ing fam point and our ranking shoot up to a certain results , we all expected to see but gone in just 5 min of failure of signing , all the hardwork goes down into the drain ... somehow kind of disappointed but what to do ? Face the reality bahx ...

Hmm , yesterday went finding baby after school but ended up when reaching his house downstair . he fell asleep , was like so fucking freak out , sudden loneliness came calling my name , bused back with anger and sadness , without receiving any msges or calls from him like for hours til he woke up , he call me but by that time I was still so angry , didn't feel like even talking to him until 7pm , started talking again but the anger still hasn't go down yet but still trying to act happy and chat with him but what more his msges was like super duper short and SIAN than after that , he fell asleep again without even informing me , at that moments I feel like a fool waiting and waiting and waiting for his msges til I fall asleep... Even til today morning , I haven even receive any msges from him to afternoon 1 pm , somehow disappointed but what can I say , nothing ...

currently:

waiting for baby to reply my msges

waiting for baby to be free

waiting for baby to finally chat with me [a proper one]

waiting for baby to find me

waiting for someone to really understand what I wanted , how I feel , understand me

Soon N level is starting again , mugging hard in my studies recently , feeling so stress as I found out that there are so much things I don't really understand , wonder what I am doing in school this years , have I listen to what teachers teach ? Have I do self revision at home after teachers teach ? Have I understand what teachers teach? Have I been sleeping in school ? why when the time I do my revision at home , I couldn't understand a single things ? I wanna go sec 5 but the requirements was like damn hard now , thinking of all the negative things now , something I feel like giving up education , I find that it is causing lots of unwanted stress for me , I admit I haven been listening well enough to what teachers teach this year but I scare if I work hard now , its a total too late for me ...

p/s : Sometime , I feel that have your feeling toward me change ? or am I thinking too much ? I feel that you have change a lot , I feel that I am a total stranger to you now but I don't wanna assume anything , no more quarrelling that why I chose solve everything peacefully but there is still sadness and loneliness in my heart ...
If you happen to pass-by my blog and read the things I wrote , don't assume anything and don't start calling me and ask me about this and that.And don't feel stress or sad about it..

Friendship :

To me now I really don't understand what is friendship like or am I too much or too selfish ? maybe bahx everyone have his or her own thinking , that how I feel ...
Shall end my post now , GOOD BYE , this post is all about how I feel , you can chose to ignore it cause there is nothing important in it ...

2009-09-10T03:38:00.000-07:00

Gonna post lots of Leeteuk photos in my blog starting from this moment :D

Credit to :http://asianfanatics.net/forum/lofiversion/index.php/t245959-650.html and www.google.com

will be back later on to update his photo so stay tune , Leeteuk fan >3

2009-08-24T03:27:00.000-07:00

didn't go school today , slack most of my time at home and 2 hour outside

studying math ! awww Edwin math so good while my math like shit dui lian sia !

PRETTY SAD TODAY :( WANT KNOW THE REASON ASK ME BAHX :(

ANYWAY , TO AUGUST ,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AUGUST HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU :D

2009-08-21T23:32:00.000-07:00

I feel so hurt wish to cry out loud !

2009-08-15T23:47:00.000-07:00

Yesterday met baby @ Jurong point together with my sister and went catch this stupid yet funny movie

rating 4/5

stupid yet funny :D total this movie got three episodes , first one retard , second one damn funny but got one part scary , third one kind of sad :( NG part was super hilarious lahx !
After movie went back to ANI PLAY with baby and my sister , drangonica and audition for 6 hours =X
pretty tired && bad for eye-sight lahx
train-ed home at 10pm :D

Today rot my day off at home suppose to be meeting baby today but too much homework make me mad , must start working hard le , exam are coming closer and closer each day , thinking of whether to go sec 5 or ITE[ which I dun wanna go but what to do ? tumb down for my result ]
Just now went login my friendster which I have not login for dunno how many years le went searching for some close friends which I chat with last time , I think they forget me le bahx ? dunno and dun wanna know haha miss the past but love my current life >3 but current life is damn stressful !

alright off to audi soon, got to do my lic !!!!

so mad at my stupid prefect which I can't chain at all , call me a noob I dunch care cuz I knew I am one :D

2009-08-10T05:56:00.000-07:00

current mood = damn down

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE :D

yesterday went clementi--> sunset-->westmall--> IMM-->clementi-->home sweet home
yesterday thing was a thumb down to me had a little tiff with baby ... Perhaps what he said yesterday was true but it really hurt me that that that much. When heading back home that time was like eh wtf felt that I am all alone in the bus everywhere I go was like I am just alone , tears just can't stop running down my eye ... alright enough of those craps ... don't wanna say more

Today Baby promise to find me after my tuition . In the end I never met him was like duh super sad ... He is going back to his camp tomoro and I am all alone again ... hais nvm er will update later sorry for my "super pro english" will update a proper one later ...
Tags will be reply later too

2009-08-07T06:23:00.000-07:00

[edited]

WONDER PRISONERS!

YEAH ! Its the popular song 'NOBODY' again,

but this time it's by the prisoners

I find it ....( no words can describe). They manage to do every single moves by the wonder girls so well lorhx :D

rating 5/5 :D

This year national day celebration at school was super boring lorhx ... They started off with the four same speeches and were spoken in four different languages which I only can understand two. Well the speeches took about an hour and 15 mins long can you imagine sitting down at the hall for so long just to listen to the speeches, sat till my butt pain and my legs were cramping ! almost fall asleep when the speeches were being read out =X but its is still the same every years singing ' count on me singapore ' After the speeches there was a short performance and than afterward dismissal! Went MAC with becky and felicia for lunch and bus-ed home with felicia :D SUPER BORED LAHX me wanna faster meet baby , missing him so much lahx !

shall end here! OFF to audi very soon >3

2009-08-05T06:43:00.000-07:00

Datedue photos updated :D Yeah HAPPY BELATED 9TH MONTH BABY although it was like super late to say but okay lahx late by five days to say it in my dumb blog ... dunch mind right ? orh gosh I am super duper blur about the new blogger draft which I was using now , how to upload photos and stuff and arrange them nicely , laugh at me if you want too I dunch mind :D me wanna master the skills of blogging well and improve my english lahx ! moodless this few days, getting so depress about the sucky result I got super duper shock that I actually flunk my whole prelim so badly , I still couldn't accept the facts that I actually flunk lehx but I will work super hard for my 'N' LEVEL... orh gosh I am super duper tired right now , headache and coughing really make me feel super un-well... perhap will be seeing a doctor if it turn bad!? will be updating blog tomoro if got time bahx nights ...

2009-08-01T08:44:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 9TH MONTHS ANNI BABY >3
yea right my blogger still suck can't post any photos dunno what happen can anyone teach me how to post photos ? my blogger was totally different now than before make me going crazy lahx arh no mood post le good night earthlings >3

2009-07-31T03:08:00.000-07:00

creating new acc for blogger , new link new acc ,
MIA-ING WILL BE ACTIVE ON PLURK SO CATCH ME THERE :)

2009-07-28T23:42:00.000-07:00

what the hell is happening in blogger make me no mood post ...
so fuck man make my day so sucky lahx
can close down le lahx !
plus the sound from outside was super freaking noisy can arh so FUCK !
as a promise to felicia and becky here the video i wanna show u :D

super hilarious but it was grab from people blog =X

Yeah my very last paper end today but scare to know that freak results I get arh super scare can and god although exam ended which mean can relax but everyday from now til N level over also must go school til 1.30 except for Friday 12.30 and of course unless holiday and weekend :D people ask me got confidence to pass mah ? my ans is hell no of course super no confidence in myself kkay ...

I wanna meet baby asap lahx so freaking miss him like hell can... Baby say he is going to give me surprises on sat or Sunday yeah so I am looking forward to it...Somemore he told he plan the things he wanna do on sat or sunday okay le super surprise can :D love you tons lahx !

THINGS WANNA DO
- I WANT MEET BABY
- WANNA HUG BABY
- FASTER LEVEL UP IN DRAGONICA
- SHOPPING FOR MORE STUFF
- PHOTOS WITH BABY :)
- MEOWX3 BECOME A BETTER FAM NO MORE QUARRELING AND MISUNDERSTANDING WITH OTHER FAM LAHX

hope blogger faster okay me wanna post super many photos inside lahx !
>3 SUJU

2009-07-03T10:58:00.000-07:00

currently is 2am in the morning , just finish doing my dumb coursework
gonna collapse real soon haven been sleeping well this whole week was chionging my coursework and stuff make me sick ><
anyway meeting baby tomoro for study prelim coming soon cannot play play play le must really work har this few month, all I can say is jiayou bahx no body can help you if you dunch help yourself :(

anyway I really do miss him lots, just 1 week not seeing him nearly cause me to die lol too rely on him le can't change use to it le ...
one surpise for baby tomoro :)

anyway good night earthlings , I really cannot take it le ...

2009-06-18T17:23:00.000-07:00

Yeah baby will be back today already happy lahx !
missing him badly can orh god ><

currently having my second day camp, wei jie is going crazy soon and I think is almost all the seniors going crazy !? ... morning breakfast neville spread jam on bread and give me lehx happy can first time ever lahx , I think today will be a fun and happy day for me perhap?! er got to go later I will update again >3

2009-06-17T23:23:00.000-07:00

Baby will be back tmr already :) excited excited excited >3

miss him badly >3

Now currently in school , slacking !? boring sia so slack for the upper sec nothing to do at all , facing the com for the whole morning to afternoon already , c so slack right ? but what are the lower sec campers doing ? They are currently busy training to complete what ever tasks that wei Jie gave , Jia you orh :) anyway wei Jie arh dunch vomit blood kkay ? relax and jia you too :)
will not be over-nighting tonight , today dunch seem to be a camping day for me so slack ...
tomorrow will be a fun day for me perhaps ? maybe !? dunno lehx ?!
shall end here le bye babes and hunks

2009-06-16T21:41:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY BROTHER :)

2009-06-12T02:42:00.000-07:00

FEELING SO AWWW RIGHT NOW
I miss your voice, I miss your sweettalks.
I miss your warm hugs, i miss your kisses.
I miss lying on your arms, I miss the happy times with you.
I miss your smile .
In fact, i missed every single part of you.

WANNA drink like no ones care to ease the feeling of miss , sucha a torture ... wanna slash my hand like no body cares but can I ? promise him no more slashing le... out of the sudden he call me chat for 1min plus plus and off he goes , Thank so much he make me feel slightly better ... 7 more days to go awwww sucha a torture lahx ! 18 days to our eighth month , baby we been through much thank for letting me know the real meaning of love ... dunch wanna leave you ever and ever again :) shopping with becky tomoro to buy clothes and bags at jurong point :)
Last but not least I wanna thank his friend for lending him phone to call me >3

Lastly, I love my baby for lifetime.

2009-06-05T22:32:00.000-07:00

FEELING SO BOO RIGHT NOW

missing baby so badly right now ! haven seen him for days already but can I do ? waiting for 19th of June to arrive wanna see you so badly ... hope he is doing well in camp ... really miss you lots :(
currently rotting at home awww bored , can anyone tell what to do ? waiting for my precious baby msg the whole day already but fail to even receive one , what can I do ? he in camp , how I wish baby dunch go NS but can't every boys have to go NS at the age of 18 or even older ... anyone chat with me pls ...

13 days to 19th june , awww sucha torture can !

2009-05-23T22:21:00.000-07:00

rot at home on Saturday sound weird for some of my friends but true didn't manage to get out of my house today as my daddie say you better know my limit sound serious lehx ... spend my whole morning listening to super junior songs :)))) awww super in love with them can , will post about their news more on 011108x3.blogspot.com ....
will try to get out of my house later so boring at home sia :((((((

13 days left time fly fast lehx :(
more and more people dislike my blog lehx I dunch mind , u happy jiu hao so so so sian lahx :(

2009-05-22T07:38:00.000-07:00

will update tomoro for sure :)))) sorry for not updating recently as I was very stress and busy sorry readers :)

2009-05-17T06:10:00.000-07:00

I LOVE MY BABY MORE THAN YOU
I MISS MY BABY MORE THAN YOU

19 more days le struggle for time to be with him struggling struggling , awww I am getting tired and stress once I think that you won't be having much time for me anymore I feel real sad , first time I am so into one relationship hope nothing break us up , having school tomorrow boring day for me once again , I am going to school everyday from now on unless I sick , chionging study from now on :) wish me luck for N ... no photos for the day just random post , rotting at home whole days doing nothing but chionging audi haha I am sucha noob can't even play 140 de song anymore from this sentence I can infer that I have yet touch AUDI for a super long time unless is marking attendance haha I am sucha good fam members ya :) lovesssss my fam more and more as everyone are marking effort to mark attendance now :D off to bed soon misses >3

all taggies reply tag me more will you ?

left 24 days le :(

2009-05-12T02:16:00.000-07:00

Recently just came back from Malaysia , went there for a holidays with my parents and theirs friends as well as to release stress , too much stress cannot take it le sometime just simply wanna end my life but I find it very stupid just because of some stress I wanna end my life . There are way too many things incomplete especially my dreams ...
Some videos and photos taken in Malaysia [ photos speak louder than words ]

went to sunset way with dear yesterday play play then bus-ed bck home at around 4 plus like this had tuition around 7 attituding the teacher til he finally say one sentence and that sentence really make me wake up , I will not waste anymore time le jy for me :)))))))

school was boring today , many teachers did not come today due to don't not wat reasons somehow like its was a holiday today no mood studying, omg Jasmine wake up can its really time to buck up !!!!! I dun wanna retain or go ite after this year I wanna go to my dream school so I really must work hard Jiayou to me :))))))) I am use to the new sitting arrangement , hope won't change anymore :)))))))

To August - dunch be stress anymore , anything just cheer up and smile . Everythings will be okay , although I cannot experience the things you gone through now but I will help to cheer you up as much as I can :)

To Baby - Sorry for showing you my attitude just now hope you forgive me by now , dunch wanna lose you remember our promises ya :))))) Dunch stress anymore kkay ??? I will be by your side de :)))) love you tons :)

To Felicia - Sorry I forget to buy your chewing gum as I was busy shopping don't say I no heart will buy for you the next round when I go Malaysia de promise :)

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P/s Videos will be uploaded next time sorry :)

Random photos of the day :)

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good nites Darlinks , sleep well , sweet dream {♥}

counting down :( 32 days to baby Ns :(

2009-05-03T07:04:00.000-07:00

Was chionging with someone's[ promise not to reveal his/her name ] Restaurant city recently and I got such a incredible results in such a short period haha gratz to me :) okay I am trying to be BHB over here ignore me kkay ???

went out with baby today suppose to meet him at 5 end up become 9 something cuz I couldn't got the chance to run out of my house letting baby to wait for me for several hours and he even rush cab down to find me as I told him I going to reach end up he reach le I haven reach yet sorry waste your cab fare :( went to sunset way and had our breakfast and than take lift up to pc play but lady boss was late had to wait outside for awhile haha baby and I were the first customers lehx, chiong audi from 10 something to 4 something but did play L4D haha a total noobie :( can you imagine how long did I play in lan ??? haha The lady boss ask me" eh !? you today can go out mehx ? I tot you sunday not suppose to go out de ?" haha I replied " can go out but must c mummy mood " around 4 something went void decks slack with baby and here came a BIG XIAOQIANG arh scream at the top of my voices and the XIAOQIANG fly and come to me and just at the moments I want to scream baby stop me he say you scream more the XIAOQIANG will find you for sure so I kept my mouth shut tightly and the XIAOQIANG really run away into the dustbin , omg ewwwww its is so digusting man lucky never fly to my body if not I sure go crazy de =X after that take buses back home , home sweet home :)

will update my blog daily for now on :) All tag replied :)

[HAHA Just brought my handphone charger today :) finally can switch on my phone le :)]
&&
READERS PLS CLICK ON MY NUFFNANG ADS && TAG ME MORE OFTEN , I WANT MORE TAG && COMMENTS ON MY PLURK MORE HOPE TO HIT 100 KARMA :)

good nites Darlinks , sleep well , sweet dream {♥}

6 months 2 days :D

2009-05-01T21:03:00.000-07:00

Thursday school wasn't that fun , boring day for me , class was quiet because the whole school is having exams except for 4na classes til bio lesson our teacher told us about the little boy who born with extra body parts on his back pity the baby boy can ??? but he is rushed to another hospital for surgery to remove his extra manhood and his surgery was a huge success all I can say is gratz for this little baby boy :D
The picture below was the little baby who has extra manhood :

Yesterday went clementi again :) but sad baby told me he is going Ns one month later which mean he has lesser time for me :( , one month can say long not long can say short not short but to me this one month going to be a fast month :( can this one month dunch so fast end???

rot my day off at home today did nothing just blogging, audi-ing, facebooking and researching on some interesting news yet lazy to do my homework but going to chiong my homework before tomoro cuz I meeting baby again tomoro at Zoom around 5 plus in the morning :D can you imagine how early it is ??? but I must wake up for sure cuz left one month only lehx :( if I still cannot pei him more in the next 2 years when he going ns I will be bored lahx omg !anyway I am totally broke recently can any kind souls drop me some money to spend ???esp let me take cab to find baby at zoom , think too much ...

P.S no MUCH photo for this post but tomoro I will sure upload photos into my post de , misses :D

READERS PLS CLICK ON MY NUFFNANG ADS && TAG ME MORE OFTEN , I WANT MORE TAG && COMMENTS ON MY PLURK MORE HOPE TO HIT 100 KARMA , HELP ME CAN MAKE MY WISHES COME TRUE :)

2009-04-29T04:49:00.000-07:00

Recently Just Had my haircut && it suppose to be side fringe now become straight cut :(
my long long fringe just went missing after that day , sad to say I really dislike my hair real much, it really don't suit me at all && my bestie Ben Tan said I look like one girl in my class now , awww abit sad , I just wanna be myself && not her awww couldn't stand it! nvm lets not talk about this, recently many peeps pass away songka again and again make me feel so sad, Daddy Friend sister just pass away yesterday I think all I can say now is Rest in peace {!}

I was late once again , couldn't wake up this morning , headpain but insist to go school , I am GUAIKIA okay ??? but ...
School was bored but with Ben tan at there joke around using his old man guitar [ badminton racket] making all sort of funny sound make me and Felicia laugh til cannot stand it but over-rall school was fine... Ss test tomoro oh no I have yet study I even left my dumb textbook at school , hope won't fail kkay ??? Need to buck up in my schoolwork already , hope won't fail , I want go sec 5 de lorhx ... hehe shall end here le :D

I want the red boston bag it is so fucking chio and that two chio bracelet can ??? blogshopper if you got red boston bag , pls leave down your tag && link :)

I AM A DAILY READER OF RINO :) && a bloghopper who leave down tag :)

WAHAHAHA && BEN TAN SAY HIS A DAILY READER OF MINE :D HAHA THANK ALOT >3

anw I miss ah yin , becky felicia and even ben tan also miss her cuz without her our side is so damn quiet :(

TAG REPLY >3

BYE DARLINKS :)

2009-04-27T20:43:00.000-07:00

Recently addicted to Thai song because I find it quite meaningful :D

came across this video yesterday night && the next thing I do was to watch the whole movie although it is last year de movies but it is the best romance movie I ever watched (T_T) so sad..i cried..use up the whole packet of tissue paper , my friends say I was lame esp boys lol =x

didn't went school today , feeling damn unwell , damn uneasy , head pain , didn't see doctor dunno what will happen tomorrow , detention ???
recently kept sick =(((( dunno what happen , most of my friends ask me rest well, yesterday they almost send me back home during S.S lesson but I didn't want to , I love school but hate waking up so early in the morning just to prepare for school , do anyone agree with me ???
been to several peeps blog recently and read the things they wrote , can say great post :D
wish that I could write like them && post lots of photos like them sound great isn't it? :D

miss my precious besties in school :( sob can I dunch be sick anymore ? I seriously HATE that feeling of being sick , can't go school , waste my time at home , can't meet baby was the worst thing , its has been a long long time since he fetch me from school , miss the past nehx , when he can fetch me every single day from school even if weekend when we are going to meet , he will fetch me from my house miss miss miss miss but what can I do ???

going to write letter to baby and give him tomorrow as I promise haha :))) tomorrow I will return back to school for sure as I miss my friends :))) laugh [!]

May stop audi-ing for awhile as I got to chiong study le , wish me luck for N lvl , time flies and I have yet study hope I will not fail && stay back in sec 4 , I wanna go sec 5 !!!I want this doggie can ??? buy for me can ?

Materialistic Dream
This is MY FAV CAR of all >3 if it is in RED it is even better >3

Bye darlinks , take lots of care >3 . Drink more water as the weather is very bad now !!!

2009-04-23T04:17:00.000-07:00

Laugh recently been to many people blog and read && leave down my tag but never leave down link because do not want them to think that I need them to return tag but got one blog i accidentally leave down my link here to say sorry and thank you for your return taggie && you r most welcome =)))))))star star >3 puff puff :)
Is ginger cute ??? >3 [ some random photos]

laugh school was fine assembly was just listening to the talks , went back to class after that and suddenly during math lesson , my back started to pain , sharp pain til I cannot take it suddenly I cannot move and it totally suck big time , my mind suddenly went blank and I tot I couldn't walk forever and must everyday sit wheelchair , hope it won't happen:( I still wanna jump , hop , run walk like normal people ...daddy came fetch me during ss lesson didn't take bio test and went to jurong poly to consult a doctor , wait for a f-ing long time , X ray && stuff , first time see doc almost 5 hours ... Somehow they couldn't find the reason why , they just say my backbones was hurt , serious injuries so must rest cannot do P.e for the next few weeks til it completely okay... doc ask me rest more ... after check up home sweet home :)

Lastly ,
THANK TO THE CONCERN OF MY FRIENDS , I AM ALRIGHT NOW BUT STILL IN PAIN :)
&&
FOUND OUT I 'M A DADDY'S GIRL =X

good night babies

2009-04-21T06:10:00.001-07:00

worst day of my life :(
ran around the school was nothing because that is what we always do during P.e lesson , luckily I pass , YEAH [!] but vomit during recess got better after that :)
lesson was boring but still have to study for the last few months before our exam oh gosh I have yet revise all the stuff that teacher teach for the past few months , flunk most of my test papers scare can't promote to sec 5 and have to say bye to my besties :( JIA YOU BAHX JASMINE LEE , got to really chiong study soon , no audi-ing , no facebook , no games , no going out make me going crazy ...
after school went lunch with sisters but before going back home , I wanted to buy chocolates to cheer me up as well as to enjoy because long time never eat le but the auntie in the shop say wah you so fat le still wanna eat chocolates than she asked me buy kit kat but I dunwan and left her shop to the other shop for chocolates :) not really angry with her comments because its true , I am fat but still got to say so what , I happy can le :)
bus-ed back home with Felicia almost fell down =X
Once I back home , i tried to online audi && facebook but fail , my audi can't play due to some problems but I will tried to figure out soon , Friends in audi wait me hor :D facebook lehx I want play de game under maintenance , Baby is busy audi-ing right now , msg kept late reply=(
can't go to my yi po de 2nd last day of her funeral and tomoro I also cannot send her off , regret lahx , feel like crying but hope she will understand not I dun wanna see her off is I no choice :(
mummy wants me go slim down and I promise her to do so le because I can't stand my size le =X

lucky brought some milk chocolates after school to cheer myself up , now enjoying who want? tell me I feed you =X

LASTLY GOT TO SAY A BIG BIG

THANK YOU TO HUIQI HUBBY LAHX , LOVE YOU TONS
&&
SORRY TO BABY FOR MY ATTITUDES PROBLEMS

2009-04-19T14:55:00.000-07:00

Photos taken last year :D
DIG OUT THE MEMORIES FROM THE PAST AND REALISE WE CHANGE ALOT BUT WE ARE STILL FRIENDS FOREVER && 4N2 WILL ALWAYS BE THE BEST AMONG THE OTHER CLASSES, LOVESSSS[♥]

CHOU BABY DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I MISS YOU ???
Rot my days off at home but later going to songka at night , my yi po had just pass away yesterday , I finally realise that how short life could be so I must learn to treasure my loves ones .

Baby once agn ruin the plan of going out with me for a shopping spree , awww piak him for sleeping so long but can't blame you becuase you also never promise that you will wake up to meet me for sure...

chionging my home econ homework now , so sian can't audi dunno what happen :(
Just level up two day ago , so what if lvl high ? can't chance , awww stupid noob !
but learning in process, Jiayou Jiayou =)
going out soon , bye readers will update more later , misses [!]

all taggies replied in my tagbox le :)

2009-04-18T01:45:00.000-07:00

currently eating my mango pudding right now , time passes freaking slow today
baby was still sleeping , awww faster wake up can , miss you so much [!]
This few days, school was fine just that I find that school was boring , can't get along well with my friends and I feel that I am extra between my besties. Should I have this kind of feeling ?
Rot my day off at home , not meeting bi for a couple of days already ever since he sick , he have been neglecting me all the while , can't blame him . Wish that I can be out tomorrow for a shopping spree with Baby . tuition soon bye readers , will update more later :)

2009-04-16T05:11:00.000-07:00

I AM SUCHA IDIOT :(
Sorry to someone hais, dunno what to do le :(

2009-04-11T19:25:00.001-07:00

Halo Readers of mine {♥}
Recently watched this movie with dear , AY && his girlfriend && Samuel && his girlfriend at plazza sing , nice movie , rated 4.5 / 5 ...

Laugh plan to watch another movie with baby today but it was being cancel cuz baby was sick
HOPE U GET WELL SOON [!] missing u badly lahx OMG :(
nothing much to post today :( Baby is sleeping like a pig , faster wake up can awww missing u badly lahx [!]

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2009-04-09T04:09:00.000-07:00

A $0 science centre ticket
my BIG BIG hand
cute little chicky :D

awww I look weird in this two photos , damn ugly can

Lalala HALO READERs {♥}
A summary on what I have been doing yesterday ...
School was as usual , lesson was boring enough to make me fall asleep , YAWN[!]
Science centre trip after school again , its have been happening for the past few years , kind of boring but I enjoyed it pretty much as I can craps around with some Friends of mine...
can say bonding time :D
after the activities felicia , becky , Y.Jiamin && me went to block 526 to have our dinner as we are very hungry [:(]
Bus-ed home with felicia :)

Today school was as usual too , time passes slow in school , lesson was extremely boring as I cannot concentrate in what teachers are teaching .
after school went for lunch and after that back to projects time , film the video over and over again to ensure that it was nicely done finally we succeeded , kind of happy ...
Bus-ed home once again with felicia :)
finally reached home , watch tv and on com til now yawn [!] kinda tired
but benjamin suddenly told me that the video didn't work out well and he could not edit hais we need to refilm again such a waste of time lehx bored bored bored next wednesday deadline le OMG {!}

Baby , sometime I wonder are we drifting apart ? but the ans you told me was no no such things , don't anyhow think . But nowadays we kept quarrel over small stuff it make me damn worry damn no mood , hope we do not have any more quarrelling starting from now on from the mins I type this sentence , promise me hao mah ?

SHOPPING WITH BABY TOMORROW , HAHA [!] HOPE TO BUY ALL THE STUFF I WANTED LAHX IF I GOT THE ENOUGH MONEY [$$] SOMEONE OR SOMEBODY SEND ME MONEY FOR SHOPPING PLEASE !

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2009-04-07T05:03:00.000-07:00

Lalala HALO READERs {♥}
Miss me ? This was my very first post in my new bloggie =D
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Recently many misunderstanding occur make me feel so upset , quarrel with baby almost everyday . Seriously I find that me and him are drifting apart , the feeling he gave me was not the same as last time le , he was less caring now than last time and last time he often care how I feel before doing something straight away but now the words he said and the actions he gave sometime hurt me alot . He often said that he got no mood but I did not know the reasons why , what a failure am I , not a veri good girlfriend perhaps . But he told me he still love me perhaps I am thinking too much bahx , hope what he say will always be true , dunch just give me false hope cuz it will hurt more than ever .

School was nothing now , boring and stress
homework alot make me cannot complete it , don't feel like studying but can't mum will sure chop me into several parts . GCE N level when arh can anyone tell me ??? should start revising now le , time is running out , OMG !!!!
went Mac after school with Becky and felicia but went back school with Yee Jiamin && felicia for our dumb tele match stuff at the end it ended , play volley ball in school for awhile and bus-ed home with baby , Happiest moment with him when we meet but ended up quarrel cuz of that suckiiee game on phone somemore , OMG !
SAD SAD SAD EMO EMO EMO
READERS , give me comments on how to prevent quarrelling with someone you love can
feeling so stress up lahx {=(}

CAN ANYONE TELL ME SHOULD I GO FOR THE PORM NIGHT ???
nvm still long , now care about my N level will pass anot mah, laugh I finding jobs right after N lvls , work my ass off and earn lots of $$$$ for shopping , shopping with baby on friday , its a public holiday&& I suppose to stay at home and study de but I wanted to give myself a short break before revising and studying , C I am lazy but no choice .

SPENT ALMOST 3 HRS ON THIS BLOG , GOT TO SLEEP REAL SOON AS I AM REALLY REALLY REALLY VERY VERY VERY TIRED , YAWN! GOOD NIGHT BABIES , LOVES {!}

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